August 19, 2015
Before anything else this morning I was thinking
in the shower and did some quick math in my head.... I realized that I have 81
days left before I finish my mission.... that means that each day that passes
by is more than 1 percent of what I have left... Honestly I’m really starting
to feel it, Im its really started to hit me hard that I’m going home, maybe
because its my last area, this is the ward I will get sent off from, but no
matter what its still getting hard to think about, I don’t want to go home. I
almost bust out crying every time I think about leaving the mission, leaving
behind all the wonderful memories that I’ve made, all my friends that are still
here, the wonderful converts that I love... it just seems to be going by way to
fast...
On a totally different topic, this week has been
a roller coaster of emotions, coming to the end of my mission that’s how it should
be, right?? I am trying to fight the feelings of "dying" here in the
mission, or in other words, not working hard, thinking too much about home, or
what Ill be doing after the mission. Its something that happens to a lot of
people as the finish their missions but I’m doing everything I can to fight it.
It was also hard because this past week somebody really died. On Friday night
my companion and I found out that one of the missionaries in our zones dad
passed away... Elder Thompson ended up going home with an honorable release but
it made me think a lot about my mission and about my family. I started to think,
"if my mom or dad died while I was on the mission would it have been worth
it?? Did I make the best of my time?? Or did I come and screw around and then
after screwing around never get to see my parents again??" Luckily I was
able to answer that it would be worth it, I have made all that I can of my time
here in Mexico, and I have working really hard but it did make me start working
hard than I have been, because I have been letting myself slip a little. Either
way whether I work hard or not Don’t any of you dare die!! I’ve only got 12
weeks left and I would hate to have that happen, it would be the hardest thing
to deal with, and even though I wouldn’t come home, I would finish out the 12
weeks that I have left and I want to see you all in the airport, so don’t do
anything stupid!! ;)
To let you all know I’m writing right now on Wednesday
because I an area change... After 6 transfers as zone leader my President put
me down to train a kid, opening area. This is easily the hardest test I’ve had
in my whole mission but I love the challenge because its making me work so much
harder than I ever have in my whole life, it makes me depend so much more on Heavenly
Father. It’s SO hard opening an area where you don’t know ANYTHING and even
harder to do it while training and newbee.... My companion and I are opening an
area called Sauces, its a little county town north of Toluca. My companions
name is Elder Solis and he is from Tijuana. It is a great experience, and even
though it’s really hard I’m really happy for this great chance. The other Elder
Adams and I are doing it together. We are both opening areas with kids and our
companions were actually companions in the MTC.
This change should be great, not only will it be
a fun roller coaster of emotions but there are so many things happening, we
have the open house for the Mexico City Temple that we will be going to with investigators
this Friday. Next week we have a zone conference with President and also next
week we have our mission conference with Elder D Todd Cristofferson. The temple
will be rededicated the 13th of September and we will also have the training
for new missionaries and their trainers.... ALL IN ONE CHANGE! What a great
time. Well I love you all and hope you have a great week!!
Love,
Elder Adams
